The Dance - Garth Brooks Cover - By Kenshinffx

This song always tugs at my heart! It goes along with some of my past posts! Happy Holidays........be safe, be full and love all you can (=

LIFE IN GENERAL

When you have a sick spouse you tend to absorb everything and every moment! Ive noticed myself finding simplicity in the oddest things. Things I didn't find so simple now have a different meaning. The old saying ~Stop and Smell The Roses~ is true......we don't do that enough. Just STOP and embrace what the world has to offer.
I notice the smallest things in my Husband now. Its weird after 32yrs I see him different , but the same. I notice his walk,smell ,laugh all like I'm seeing them for the first time. I sit back and watch my boys and try to pull ~their dads qualities~ out of them and soak it in! What did they take from me....from him! I wonder if hes doing the same thing now?! Are we both seeing each other in a different light? Are we both soaking up every moment we have?! I feel so blessed yet shorted!?

I guess this is a natural process, I'm not really sure? Life has a way of changing you with out options. Sometimes its unfair and we don't have a choice, but to see it differently and other times we JUST HAVE to see it differently. To soak up everything around us whether good or bad, whether you have any control over it or not. So, my theory is ~Stop and smell the Roses~  Try to soak up all the ~scents~ you can! Cherish it all because you never know what life has to offer you . Seems Cliche' I know, but its true. A bad situation or shall I say an unexpected situation has MADE me do all the above! Sometimes when you want to take things for granted or think ~ Ill do it tomorrow ~ STOP and do it NOW~ ......just the simple things make the world of difference.

~SERVICES FOR MY PHONE PENDING )= ~

Yes its true.....another cell phone in my possession has seen an untimely demise! Don't know what it is with me and electronic devices, but they don't hang around very long! Heck, I cant even wear most watches....they wont cont to work on me after a few days. The jeweler said it must be my body chemistry, but we know as far as cell phones go its my drinks that get them every time!! Very disturbing and expensive this year.

This phone must really be pissed, it will ring, show me a number, BUT wont let me answer the call! If that's not bad enough the dang thing keeps beeping to tell me I have a text, BUT I cant see it!! Its trying to torture me for what I don't know? Over use? Using as a flash light and disgracing its intentional purpose? Using it till its so hot it hurts to keep up to my ear......over talking is probably the root to the problem! The dt cokes are a mercy killing!

I never realized how addicted I was to the Internet from my phone. Checking my Blogs, face book,GPS and Map Quest. Just to be able to look something up at a blink did spoil me! I had to go on an ~actual~ computer and order me another phone from EBay! It wasn't easy either. I think they have a Club out there that don't want me have another phone )= Seriously, out of thousands of phones how could I not win a  single bid??!!  I REFUSE to buy a new one and be locked in to another cell phone company.......don't EVEN get me started on my disappointment of Phone Companies! So, EBay it will be....some one has to drop their guard and take my bid!! Until then I will bite my nails (seriously) and hold out......I CAN DO THIS!!

Now of course my family is NOT complaining at all! They are glad I cant reach them on a whim, they are glad I cant text when I want and they now are not obligated to come up with a ~ltl white lie~ ~I mean excuse as to why they NEVER answer! You know as I'm writing this I may have been set-up??!! Maybe they place my drinks where my phone will fall right in to them...hummmm! Could it be?? Is my own family ~snubbing~ out my phones?! Huh I'm sure it couldn't be me??!! I baby my phone...it is my life line!! I just don't understand why they always choose to go for a swim in my coke or coffee.......maybe I should talk MORE and they wont get bored??!! I may be on something there too hummmm

So, all who know me and know I actually do at times fall asleep holding my cell ( I know I need help) I PROMISE I am NOT ignoring your calls....MY DAMN PHONE IS AND HES LAUGHING AT YOU...AND ME!!!! HES NOW IN TROUBLE AND WILL GO INTO THE ~DRAWER OF SHAMEEEE~ (echoing sound by the way lmbo) I will now embarrass all the phones who did not hang with me thru thick and thin and especially the WET!! I must teach the new one how to swim!!

I will buy a bigger and better version of you!! I will buy a water proof case and I WILL have this phone till I'm sick of it or dies from natural causes.....this I promise!! So, please lift the black ball on me, so I can give one of your electronic friends a better and useful - VERY useful life (=  Now I'm fixing to go back on EBay and I am on a mission! A mission to find my next electronic friend! Maybe one my Chiropractor will like too lol He believes the cell has not been kind to my body...imagine that!!

So, the next time you see me my ~new,improved and working~  phone will be updating for me! Wish me luck. If your on Verizon....tell me what your phone of choice is. Ive had a Blackberry the last 4 phones and am literally buying quarterly! Their not the most expensive, but their not cheap either.....all in all I probably have over a $1000.00 in my ~dead phone drawer~!!! (a few yrs worth) Now that's a sad waste of good money!! Help me out my friends. I have a site on a past Blog that will actually take all those old phones and pay YOU for them!! So, don't feel bad for them, they will find a new home....kinda (=

Happy Holidays and I hope to be sending out many Holiday texts real soon! O.K. I'm a going shopping now and I feel THIS time I am going to find my ~soul phone~!!

~ WTH ~

1) People who Dress-up JUST to go to the Grocery Store???!!! WTH
2) People who treat their pets better than their kids???!!! WTH
3) Peple who call or text you and you reply and they dont answer??!!! WTH

4) Why we ALL cant be perfect??!! WTH
5) Why it cant stay Summer ALL year around??!! WTH
6) Why Plastic Surgery isn't FREE after 50??!!! Insurance Companies should want us to look young, so we will still feel a false sense of security to pay those hellacious premiums???!!! WTH

7) When did it become socially acceptable to pretend to be something your NOT???!!! WTH
8) When did 60 start to seem sooooo young???!!! WTH
9) When did LIFE in general become so complicated??!!! WTH

10)  How did Blogging become easier than actually communicating??!!! WTH
11)  How did Reality Shows become so popular......do we REALLY think its reality???!!! WTH
12)  How is it possible to love Chocolate sooo much???!!! WTH

13)WTH is wrong with kids these days and why did/do we feel the NEED to spoil them so much???!!! AND when did they get smarter than us lol!!!
14)WTH happened to Obama Promises?? !!! (NO, I didn't vote for him and Im still wondering what ~change~ people voted for?!))
15)WTH is wrong with this Blog??!!! (=


No, Im not being negative just having a WTH day! Im sure tomorrow will be a ~Im so grateful~ day lol
It IS Monday, so what is your WTH Monday revelation??!!

~WTH Monday~,Tues will be ~Thoughtful Tuesday~ and how about ~What-ever~ Wednesday and then ~Thankful Thursday, ~ Freakin' Friday~, ~Social Saturday~, Finally ~Sacred Sunday~ Ta Daaaaa

~AN AWARD~

''That Girl With Endo'', just gave me this sweet award! She has an incredible story to tell. One with alot of personal heartache, but also triumph! She is living a life many of us women live, but still it isn't talked about as as it should be! Thank You and I wish you all the Happiness,Good Luck and Fortune in the world (=
                                                                    GOD BLESS

I WANT TO SHARE THIS WITH::

 Green Monkey Tales, D.D. @ Dazee Dreamer ,Angie @ Like Shes Somebody, Shelia @ Opto mom and Grace @ Looks Good Naked! I don't have your address, but the above so will leave a message on your page! Take care and have a GREAT week/weekend!

Everyone of these fellow Bloggers have a Story to tell. They all are different with different life stories and experiences. I can visit their Blogs and experience all emotions, but no matter what is going on in their life they find a way to find humor in it! If not humor then ~peace~! If not peace then ~acceptance~...it all goes hand in hand! We don't have to agree on what everyone writes, but the fact that we can be open minded and accept one anothers flaws, sadness,rewards,illnesses,life experiences and HAPPY moments is what makes this forum and you special (=

The Bitter Truth

So, my friend and fellow Blogger Angie decided to walk again. Shall I say shes already walking and I'm going to start tomorrow. Shes the Ltl Athletic type and well.......I'm not ha ha  I have sworn my Loyalty to meet at 8:15 a.m. with coffee in hand. She tells me to ~Layer-up~ that's NEVER a good sign!

THAT WILL BE ME IN MY ~PEACE~ SNUGGIE @ 7:59AM!

As we were texting back and forth our early morning plans I had a Revelation! Well you see as we are discussing the ~Proper Clothing~ I decided I didn't walk in the Summer, because it was too hot! I didn't walk in the winter, because it was too cold! I had already eliminated 2 out of 4 seasons! I felt quite proud of my reasoning's!!

Truth is I ALWAYS say I cant wait till it gets warmer so we can REALLY SWEAT, you know make it worth our while and lose more calories. Then I say, I cant wait till it cools off so we wont sweat as much?! So what about the other 2 Seasons, what are my excuses? I don't have any and I'm actually trying to make them up as I type! So lets see Spring) that SHOULD be the perfect time to walk BUT IS IT......IS IT REALLY??!!  Isn't that when the allergies are so strong......Im almost positive the pot holes in the road are much worse then?! What about Autumn......hummmmm well I'm not getting anything! Maybe its damp, hurts the bones more, ummmm still left over pollen possibly! Help me out girls (=

There is NOTHING like a ~PERKY~ morning walker....good thing that's not us! We like to bitch, moan and groan. Sometimes we actually talk about good things too, cant all be bad or we REALLY would be too depressed to walk! I am grateful to this athletic friend of mine tho, she tends to make me feel bad about not taking better care of myself. Not on purpose, because she feels the same way! When its ~out-there~ you have NO choice, but to be aware of what your NOT doing! That's why I hate the Pre-Summer after Winter talks they always lead to what we are doing wrong! Smoke too much,cuss too much THEN its the ~we really really need to start walking again~ Its inevitable.

So as I set out on this 3-4 time yearly quest to get healthy, I'm still trying to think up an excuse as to why I cant crawl my big butt out of a warm and cozy bed in the morning! I blogged this because I know she will see it and text me or call and sound like my mom when I was a kid! Kinda one of those things, ''If your not dead or bleeding to death'' you SHOULD be here walking!!! I even thought of the idea....I don't have a hat....yea I liked that one! She says, ''I don't walk in a hat''! Well shit that blew that excuse ha ha

So, I just may post a picture of us walking in the morning in sub-zero temps....OK maybe not sub-zero, but it WILL be cold! She will be the skinny one in the picture, the one that doesn't look like she NEEDS to walk! You know shes walking strictly to get into BETTER shape and possibly because she enjoys it! Ha ha, I will be the other one! Since their is only 2 of us it shouldn't be hard to find me! I will look like the ltl boy in The Christmas Story! Oh and I will have a brace on my left knee.....would wear one on my right one, but figured it'd look to dramatic (although I REALLY do need one on it too ha ha)! I have issues.


Please say a prayer that a) I make it out of bed! b) I make it around the track at least once! c) I don't leave on a stretcher, but most of all d) that we can catch up on 4mths, because I really have missed talking to her pain and all (=

ITS NICE TO BE HOME...I THINK?!

I have lived out of a suit case for 3mths....literally! Whether at the Hospital or at an Apt. the Ark House set us up in! I'm sitting here looking at MY 4 walls not knowing how to feel? Should I be comforted in the fact that my husbands radiation is over and we have a mth break till he starts his chemo again? Should I be nervous that hes not feeling well tonight and we are 3hrs away? Should I embrace the fact that hes doing AMAZING or should I be freaking out at what the future will hold?!

WESLEYS SURPRISE BDAY PARTY 50YRS THIS WAS AFTER SURGERY BUT PRE TREATMENT! WE ALSO CELEBRATED MY SONS 20TH BECAUSE WE WOULD BE IN DALLAS!

If you've ever been told your spouse has an incurable disease, I assure all these feelings and more rush thru your mind! You dont sleep much, you smile and put on a front and you pray, you pray alot! You pray for all kinds of things, mercy,healing,a miracle,wisdom,strength for them,you and your children and thats just the top of the list!

No, this isnt a pity post , but more of the Diary I promised earlier. If I can help someone realize its ok to be sad,mad and any other emotion they are feeling then Ive helped. If  I can help them get intouch with resources that have helped us so far ......then I have helped!

We have used U.T. S.Western in Dallas and they have been absolutely awsum! Everyone said for him to go to MD Anderson(awsum too), but after the near death experience (I kid you not!) at a local Hospital, he felt comfortable where I had him transferred and it was where HE felt comfortable! BUT, I however have been so pleased, I just cant say enough! They are in with the Cancer Centers Of America now, they DO converse with MD Anderson,Duke etc. I highly suggest them if you are in need of a Center Center!

Yes, in past post I told you of the strange people I met standing on Harry Hines on my phone, But it was partly my fault.....I didn't realize hookers also walked Harry Hines lmao! I did not realize a mental hospital with ~self check in~ was across the street along with the Salvation Army! But, you know what THOSE people helped ME!! Their story's seemed hopeless at times and they had no one who would give them the time of day much less listen! I didn't mind really....well The Charles Mansion look alike ~up in my space~ kinda freaked me out, but he ment no harm! Just wanted an ear!

THIS IS THE ENTRANCE AT THE CANCER CENTER! A BLOWN GLASS SCULPTURE

The Ark House, is a Methodist funded non profit organization that helps people find housing if receiving treatment and live further than 50 miles away! Talking about a blessing! We had been staying at the Marriott,don't get me wrong it was heavenly compared to the Hospital chair Id been in, but even at a hospital discount it was 80$ aday!  Three mths of that, co-pays EVERYDAY (Don't get me started on the whole insurance saga....60$ aday co pays),we know the chemo meds are over 10,000$ a mth, because you have to sign if over 10grand and we are definitely having to sign )= etc etc etc, The Ark House was/is our Saving Angel!! We only had to pay 15$ a day BIG difference, now I realize why hospital bills sink people quickly. The Volunteers came by several times a week to see if we needed anything,paper goods, washing powder,food etc! They also called to check on us weekly! To me they were our Angels Of Mercy and I hope to be in the position to help in the same capacity in my area one day!

THE ARK HOUSE APT!

As my night is coming to an end I must up-date you on my hubbies progress. He has Anaplastic Astrocytoma stage 3-4 with sum 1-2. For his prognosis he shouldnt really be walking well or communicating with out a delayed thought. He should have problems with his left side due to tumor location...he has NONE! His surgeon Dr Beshay, was AMAZING and removed all his tumor with no problems! So, as you can see we have so many things to be grateful for! And yes my friends we are blessed everyday hes one of 4 beating the odds so far!

WALKING INTO HIS SURPRISE PARTY HAHA

For all you caregivers, you have the right to be tired....God knows I am! I at first thought how selfish that was and when people told me to take care of myself I thought are these people CRAZY?? This isn't about ME! They were however wiser than me.....I had to learn the hard way! My Fibromyalgia went into overdrive with all the stress and I wasn't keeping an eye on it! I'm feeling better, but you'd just have to understand the disease to understand the symptoms !

THIS IS MY OLDEST BEING THE DR....TOOO FUNNY! HIS NAME TAG SAID DR PHILGUD (=

Long story short ( well maybe not lol) he IS  doing good, Ill be OK and all I can hope for is a miracle healing!  Please keep the prayers coming! He still has a long road to travel, but at this rate he will be one of  the 4 patients she writes about!  Such a Blessing!!! Glass half full kinda mentality (=

.........AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST! MY HUBBIE AND I HIS LAST WK OF TREATMENT!!!

So, just wanted to catch up and share a few thoughts,stories and pictures! This story had just began and I pray I'm  blessed with many more years to tell it! Love to you all from my family to yours (=



                                                                 I BELIEVE IN MIRACLES

AWWWW THANX SHELIA AKA OPTO-MOM! NICE TO KNOW I HAVENT BEEN FORGOTTEN!! I WILL SEND OUT SOME AWARDS TOO AS SOON AS I CATCH UP! IVE BEEN WITH MY HUSBAND FOR 3MTHS IN DALLAS AND AM NOW HOME AND BACK TO BLOGGIN!!! IM BAAAACCCCKKKKKKK (=

~SECONDS~

There is a Sprint commercial that shows a split screen of two different scenarios. One is where just 1 second-one split decision to help someone or go right instead of left changed their life! In a way its a Pay it Forward kinda thing and or Karma.

Do you stop to help someone who has dropped something, open a door for someone, let a person go ahead of you in line, give someone directions?! You get the picture.......IF you hadn't stopped to do one of the above would you have met that special someone? Found a great deal? Met that best-friend? IF you walked on by and didn't help did you miss the opportunity to meet one of the above or meet a future boss or contact?!

I always wonder about that and I always try to be helpful, but I'm not perfect so a commercial of that nature makes me think! Did I miss that contact,  special person or conversation? I guess the older I get and the more life experiences I face the more I ~wonder~?!

As I said in my last post, I tend to have ''that face'' that people come up to for directions, money or just to talk! I don't think I look a certain way , but they must see something I don't.  Peoples stories fascinate me, their life and why they chose the roads they did! Maybe that's ~the look~ I have lol ....that I  need to understand the universe and what makes people tick ?! Maybe because I question the decisions Ive chosen in my life at times it tends to make me wonder ~what if~!

I also believe that's where faith comes in and we are not ment to know the ~what ifs!~ Only our God knows ~what if~ and we just have to accept that or we're suppose to with Blind Faith. Due to our life situation at the moment, I have alot of questions and most will never be answered ! I live with curiosity, but try to live without any regrets!

So, until the next post maybe we should all try to think about that ~next second~ and make the best of it....The Good ,The Bad,The Ugly AND The Unknown! Much love my Blogging Friends!

OLAHHHHHHHHHH

Yes, I'm back! I will be posting some pics this week on a ltl trip we took to the Coast to get away and re-group! We are going tomorrow to have Wesley's 1st appt with the Radiologist and Oncologist! After that I assume the treatments will begin!

I'm glad we got to get away for a bit and just be us two! The last time we did that our oldest was 2(hes23) and our youngest wasn't even a thought (almost20)! So, I do believe crisis mode or not it was MUCH needed AND  well-deserved lol

Miss my Blogging friends....miss all my friends...hasnt been much time for anything but Hospitals,Dr's appts and alota driving! Everyone please keep praying for a healing miracle for  my husband! Thank you so much and as this process continues I will continue with the updates and hopefully some funny stories too!

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I must have a sign on my head that says ~I WILL TALK TO ANYONE-GIVE YOU MY MONEY ETC!~ God love 'em! I had every homeless, pre-phyco-alcoholic lonely person come to me as I would go out side the hospital to make my calls! Now don't get my wrong, I have this unexplainable empathy for these people! I have worked in the field and so many are Vets that's aren't getting their benefits or are too far gone to know how, 1 missed pay check for many can lead you down that road and some are just troubled beyond repair! This I know, BUT some are what they are and able bodied!

#1) I hear a shuffling and out of the corner of my eye I see this man walking across the parking lot! I say ~Please God let this man walk on by today!~ but, noooooo he did not! I'm one of those people that if you are closer than my arm can swing around my body....you are too close! This man was Charles Manson twin_I kid you not! But, I also have a fascination with why people are the way they are etc....I believe people pick up on that too! He begins to ask me for a smoke and starts to tell me he needed a smoke beforee he walked across the street ~AND COMMITTED HIMSELF!~ Now of course this made me a TAD  bit leery!

I was even more stressed because he was in ~My Space~ that arm reach space I was talking about!!  He began to talk of his family as if I knew who 'Bob' his dad was-'Mary' his Aunt -'Bruce' his x-lover!! etc!! He went on this elaborate story of being ust to Limos, getting into private clubs because he was 'known', how his step mom(who I was suppose to know) screwed his dad outta all his inheritance and THEN he began to cry!!! OMG I thought .....what am I suppose to do with this poor soul? He explained how his gran maw died and he was the one who took care of her and no one told him she died till a  month later! That he needed his meds to deal with it....then he got angry!

AT this point I'm trying to listen, because I know that in EVERY crazy rant there is truth somewhere!! I'm also trying to look for security and an escape route!! I managed to change the subject THEN that one wound up going into his gay escapades with ~famous~ football players.......it was a lose lose situation!

You know he never asked for money only a smoke! I feel some people JUST wanna talk to ANYONE who will listen! I did listen and i politely excused myself after his second cig. by telling him I had to go check on my husband! I wished him well told him God Bless and walked away........but yet I still cant get this man outta my mind! Was he crazy, was he ~half~ crazy?! Was anything he said true or half truths?! Guess Ill never know....

#2) Don't worry only picking 2 today lol I'm sitting out on the Bus Stop( only because no other seating) in front of the Hospital making my calls. I again see an elderly man walking my way....I hate to say this but again was thinking the same as above! (MY HUSBAND JUST HAD BRAIN SURGERY AN WAS TRYING TO MAKE FAMILY CALLS) But once again God showed me! This was a man in his 70s or appearance wise is what he appeared. He sat down and ask me if I was waiting on the bus. I explained my situation briefly and he began to talk! As he asked if I cared if he drank his beer there he began to tell me how ""That hospital killed his brother ); "" Who knows if that was true all I know is its the leading one in Texas for Brain surgery! He began to tell me that he was a builder and many times he told me ~I'm not an idiot~ I know how to build and do things others don't! The more I spoke with him or let him talk I realized he was for the most part very intelligent! He began to explain how he had an idea to build these houses and all he needed was land to put them on to make a sub-division> That the sub walls could be made outta palates...which Ive since heard is being done! I asked him if he had children and he explained how he hadn't spoke to them in yrs ...sad to me!

As he went in and out of different subjects he began to speak of his parents and how they ~werent worth nuthin~ how if he wanted to eat as a child he had to catch his own food! That he was an expert fisherman.....I just sat there and listened with so many questions I didn't dare ask, but he also seemed like he ~just wanted to talk~ to someone...anyone!!! I excused myself when the bus came telling him I had to go back to my husbands room! I shook his hand and told him it was nice to meet him and that I wished him luck in the future. He asked me if I would be back soon.......I felt bad telling him no )= ! Again, I left wondering WHY....what happened to this man, he appeared homeless, but also intelligent! But also an alcoholic, so I may have answered my own question! Maybe the demon of alcohol was more important that his business, wife and kids?! Who knows....I never will!!

There are some sad stories, funny stories and some awsum people I met as I went outside daily and I will refer to them in future post! For now that's it! God Bless and I hope these two men find peace some where in their life!

ME, MY BOYS AND HUMOR

I am not one of those parents with a million rules, but there is one thing I insisted on: The first thing my kids should see when they wake up is a smile. For good measure after naps, I usually jump up and down when I walked into their room to show how excited I am to see them; this is clearly one of those things you can do in the privacy of your own home and those little eyes looking at you will think your awsum and not crazy! “Wakey Wakey hands off Snakey!!” — like a victory dance in an undeclared war against sleep.

Early on in this rollercoaster ride of raising kids,(mine are 20 and 23) it struck me that among the many, many, responsibilities of being a parent — turns out there’s more to it than napping — was my need to make sure that my children learned what’s funny! Even if it turns out that they just have to be a doctor or must be a lawyer, I want them to be the funniest ones they can be. Seriously: learning what’s funny — not just how to make people laugh, but how to view oneself with humor — I felt would help them grow into the wonderfully engaged human beings we hope they’ll become. Also, appreciating comedy seemed like a tangible skill I could teach them myself, between the lessons about not eating rocks or sticking things in electrical outlets.

I started thinking more seriously about the funny. How could I assemble the “rules” of comedy for them?? Early on I knew both my boys had a keen sense of humor along with timing........timing is key to being funny!


I started simply, with laughing lessons. Boy did they have laughs`! Every week my oldest had a different laugh. from Pee Wee Herman to Bart Simpson to Movie Stars and eventually family members and neighbors which had to be an inside joke as not to hurt peoples feelings!!

“Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha…


Hee, hee, hee, hee, hee…

Hi, hi, hi, hi, hi…

Ho, ho, ho, ho, ho…

Huuu, huuu, huuu, huuu, huuu.”

Now combine all those together some how and that was their specialty laugh!
 I have no scientific facts to back this up, but I firmly believe my boys discovered laughing earlier than most because of their enviroment Or, maybe it’s because we were often  in my jammies just being us. And I cant leave the hubbie doing their crazy stuff.they grabbed oh his his legs as he rushed in the door to be attatcked by 2ltl ones wanting hugs and a ride on the back or walk on the shoes etcccc


             Then we moved on to facial comedy. The bug-eyes. The cross-eyes.The double-take. Even a little spit-take just to show them that grown-ups do it too, and with the right comic timing, it isn’t just disgusting. After every bit, I’d laugh, to show them you can laugh at all ages and at most things.



I admit that I like looking silly and stupid in front of my kids (and in front of your kids too, if they’re around). I only hope that by doing this, and by assuming the heavy responsibility of being their comedy mentor, I’ve started Morrris Boys on the road to a more joyful life. I’m trying to cover all the bases. Shortly after they were born, I made faces and strange noises to get their attention and response!:



“I am thankful for laughter except when milk comes out of my nose.”

- Woody Allen



“I’ll teach you to laugh at what’s funny!”

- Homer Simpson


The key is being open to improvisation. It’s not a full-time funfest at our house, but I try to focus on the laughter rather than the tears,complaints or howls.



What comes next, I’m not sure, but I feel confident that at least my children will know that the proper response to “I don’t know” is “Third base.”


Now that that are grown, the first thing everyone says is how ~funny~ my boys are....the only down-fall is its hard to tell when the oldest is serious! I will tell you this their teachers will never forget them and their wise answers or speeches! The coaches had a hard time with their humor, because theyd always put a positive spin on a bad game and they HATED that lol They wanted everyone to be pissed when they were pissed haha it didnt work with mine and in the end I actually believe they softened some of those old goats up lol

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..................TO BE CONTINUED!

At this point it has been several more weeks since my last post! Not really sure where to start or what I'm ready to share yet, but I hate to keep you hanging!

My husband had brain surgery to remove a tumor 2 weeks ago today. As I said this was all a shock to us....we had no idea he was sick other than kidney stones. In spite of the fact that Good Shepard Medical Center almost killed him...I'M SERIOUS!, I finally ~forced~ them to transfer him to UT S Western Zale Lipshy, in Dallas where they brought him back to life and performed the brain surgery flawlessly!

We are now in the process of being set up for treatment at UT S. Western Zale for his radiation/chemo. They are said to be as good as M D Anderson and he feels comfortable there sooo.............I pray they are! He has the ~C~ word. At this point I'm not ready to go into detail until he and I know exactly what we are dealing with! I  may start a separate blog just on this ,his recovery and the road we will be traveling in the process!

We have 2 sons,been together 32 of my 47yrs on this earth and he is my rock...our rock! We are devastated and hopeful at the same time! If any of you out here have experienced this kind of tumor glioblastoma  or know someone who  has please put them in contact with me! His is a rare form so it cant be treated like a reg grade3-4....its all a guessing game and Im actually ok with that! Why?? Because a grade 4 is not a good out come and with his it has alittle of all, so its not fast growing and thats awsum!!! My head is full and swimming of what to do...the best thing for us to do???!!!!

Thank you for your support and I appreciate all who will share this journey with us and give me advice, support or a sounding board! God Bless Roxs

~MY LIFE AS WESLEYS WIFE~

Its been a few weeks , more like a month since my last post! My life has been in such turmoil and will only give a short story, as I'm too tired to wrap my brain around it!

Several weeks ago my husband doubled over with kidney stones, This was our 1st ambulance run! We arrived at a local hospital and all in all the experience what a decent E.R. visit! He left still with stones "intact", but not any worse than when he went in!

Three days later my husband was at his parents , had a seizure (1st and last) and was rushed to another hospital.(my oldest got to witness this!). This is where the ~saga~ begins.............................Give me a few days and Ill complete this when Im sure of the out come this weekend! Please keep our family in your prayers!

YOU MIGHT BE A REDNECK IF.......................

Redneck Starship Captain

                                                                            

Your Starship Captain just might be a redneck if...
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Your shuttlecraft has been up on blocks for over

a month

He paints flames and a NRA sticker on the warp

nacelles.


You have a shuttle called "Billy Joe Bob."


He refers to Klingons as "Critters."


He refers to Photon Torpedoes as "Popguns."


He has the sensor array repaired with a bent

coathanger and aluminum foil.


He installs a set of bullhorns on the front of the

saucer section.


He says, "Got your ears on, good buddy"

instead of "open hailing frequencies."



He hangs fuzzy dice over the viewscreen.


He rewires his communicator into his belt buckle.


He keeps a six-pack under his command chair

and a gun rack above it.


He says, "Yee-Ha!" instead of "Engage."


He has a hand-tooled holster for his phaser.


He insists on calling his executive officer

"Bubba."


He sets the fore viewscreen to reruns of

"Bassmaster."


He programs the food replicator for beer, ribs,
and turnip greens.


He paints the starship John Deere green.


He refers to a Pulsar as a "Blue Light Special."


He refers to the Mutara Nebula as a "swamp."


His moonshine is stronger than Romulan Ale.


He sings "Lucille" instead of "Kathleen."


His idea of dress uniform is CLEAN bib overalls.


He wears mirrored shades on the Bridge.


He sets phaser to "Cajun."

FUNNY PIC AND NEWS

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Now those signs are both funny AND disturbing lol!  Its funny at times how we have to spell out even the *basic* things for some to understand! Its also funny that someone had a good enough day to tell everyone else they would not!! I probably would have laughed at it (=


Man Sues Coffee Shop for Ice Mocha Mishap

August 26, 2002 - Michigan, USA

After spilling an iced coffee beverage onto his lap while driving from a local coffee shop drive-through a Michigan man is now suing the shop for $800,000 in damages and mental anguish. The man claimed it was a "traumatic experience" that has negatively altered his life in many ways. He claims that he was unaware of the frigid temperature of his Ice Mocha or he would have taken better precautions with handling the beverage. The coffee shop owner said during our interview, "Anyone who doesn't know the temperature of a drink that has the word 'ice' in its name has much more important things to worry about than a moment of discomfort due to his own negligence. He sustained no physical harm, there were no damages to his vehicle or possessions except a brown stain on his pants, which I am sure is something he is used to."


SOME PEOPLE WILL DO ANYTHING FOR MONEY! HE NEEDS TO BE GLAD IT WASNT HOT!! HAVE AN AWSUM NIGHT AND I WILL CATCH YOU LATER IN THE WEEK

 ~ROXS~


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~Sizzling Sunday and Pending Monday~

THIS IS MY YOUNGEST AND HIS GIRLFRIEND 

THEY LOVE TO TAKE PICS!

Which ones better? I vote for Sizzling Sunday, why you ask? Because I enjoy the family being home. I am glad my boys are off work and out of the heat except for the things they WANT to do! I enjoy listening to them laugh and their girl friends giggle, watch them pick at each other - fuss and make up! But most of all watching them grow.

I have came to realize if not for our misfortunes they may not still be living at home! Bitter sweet.........Im one of those moms that could have her children live by them ALWAYS! They wouldnt have to visit everyday it would just be nice to know their ok and at home at night safe and sound!
So before some freak out on me-NO-I dont encourage it, but I would never discourage it either. We have a close family and we love their long time girlfriends. We all know each others limits so we try not to go too far!
As I said in my last post, this is a small house and we are forced to always be around each other if home! It gets difficult at times, but I wouldnt give it up for the world. I can go next door (our store room is bigger than our house and was an old church pews and all!) where I put the office,tanning bed etc and chill to get away from the ruckus lol They can go over there to get away from us also so it works!
I also realize with talks of engagements pending with both by the end of the year and Bridal magazines thrown around the house in every corner this scenero will be over soon enough. Maybe thats why I enjoy my weekends with my ~CREW~ as I call them! I am reluctlently letting go more and more everyday, although I tell them I have.......I havent!
I never realized just how much ~I~ needed them until they were all I had! I always prided myself on allowing them to grow, make their own mistakes and be their own person. Their Dad and I in the back ground if needed watching, waiting,congratulating,cheering on and consoling if need be!
This sizzling Sunday my oldest spent the weekend at his G.F.s families in another town. Its quiet when hes not here. God has blessed me with this time with him. He moved back home shortly after our house burnt and drove back and forth to College. Four days a week he drove a 120 miles round trip, he said he wanted to be back home around his family! The thought of us not being here really freaked him out! I laugh and say God brought him back home so Id get sick of another grown man (21-23) living at home and I could deal when they moved out for good! I REALLY do believe this!
My youngest and I did College stuff this weekend on the computer trying to get him registered etc His laugh is so intoxicating I love to hear it! It makes a bad day seem not so bad! Its makes a good day GREAT! His G.F. would marry tomorrow, so I have spent alot of time explaining the importance of school and being prepared! Who knows if it sunk in, but at least this small house presents the ability to hear and see more so I can help or at least put my 10cents in!
Sizzling Sundays are the day that slows the weekend down,brings us all together to prepeare for the week to come and always open the door for discusssion of ~something~. Its family meal day, the day everyone slows down long enough to stick around and watch a movie together,grill,do some house/yard work and just have a visit! I love it and I hope when they are married going thru the hussle and bussel of life they look back and remember this time together with a smile! I hope they take away from the experience that family is what counts and everthing else is secondary.
I can only say a prayer that they feel as Blessed as I do! Who knows what next weekend will bring, but I do know next Sunday will be a family day full of stories, laughter,arguing(they are boys),schedules for the pending week, but most of all unity........~ A Family That Prays And Plays Together Stays Together~

THIS IS MY OLDEST AND HIS GIRLFRIEND!

THIS IS OUR HOUSE DURING ~FIGHT NITE SATURAY! WE RENT PAY PER VIEW (UFC FIGHTS?)AND EVERYONE FINDS A SEAT(FRIENDS AND FAMILY),EATS A GOOD MEAL AND JUST ENJOYS THE COMPANY...TOLD YOU IT WAS TIGHT LOL

Simple Saturday

~PICTURES FROM OUR HOUSE THAT BURNT~

That's what today has been and I love it! Simple in the clothes I put on, the calls I've made,the plans for tonight and it seems to be showing in my new pattern of life! I believe I may be seeing alot more simple days and relationships......because they are just that ~SIMPLE~!

You see so many things have lead up to this decision and I will share a few with you! Now before I begin do not Pity me for what I share because I have learned and grew from all my life experiences.

Two yrs ago at about 3am we were awoke by our house full of smoke. We had restored this home 4yrs prior and was one of the oldest in our Historical town and I might add also one of the prettiest. It was a beautiful house with 14-16ft ceilings,original hardwood floors,grand entrance,3 baths...just everything you could want in that type of home! My oldest son was away at college and our youngest up front asleep awaiting his bday in 2days!

When my husband woke me and opened our bedroom door black smoke barrelled in.....it was the most frightening thing I have ever experienced. This was a large house so to get from our room up and around to our sons room in a dark smoked filled house was a chore! I jumped up and ran/crawled to his room and woke him, turned around and headed to the front door and he was gone! I ran back to his room and he was asleep again (apparently he had already started to breath in smoke!) so I jerked him up in his boxers and we ran! My husband went out the back grabbing the dog and what few items he could as I tried too, but there was only so much we could get!

In all the ruckus we had called 911 and the emergency crews were there by the time we got outside! We stood that night and watched everything we owned and all our memories go up in smoke and there wasn't a thing we could do! At the time and months to follow were the hardest of my life. My brother passed of a rare and sudden illness 6mths later, my husbands dad passed 1yr 1/2 later and his mom was diagnosed with cancer just 2mths after his death!

There were alot of little things that were in between, but also came the reevaluating my life and its purpose. What should I do from here was always a thought! I realized VERY quickly that night as I watched the flames that my family was safe! My animals were safe! All I THOUGHT was important or status quo meant nothing with out the life that was breathing around me!!

We went from 3600 sq ft to 850 sq ft! Its a small family property given to my husband when his dad passed. I have moaned and groaned at the size etc, because it has been a major shell shock! BUT I have learned that this `SMALL` house has helped to heal our family and bring us even closer! We have no choice but to be around each other, watch T.V. together,eat together and wait for an available bath room yes...together lol Due to all the circumstances money has been tight so we have also learned to entertain each other!

I never thought my life would be where it is now and some tragic things have happened , but it has taught us all how important the ~~simple~ things in life REALLY are! Friends,family and the smaller things that cant be bought are whats important. I cherish every moment I have with the ones I love and realize in many ways how they can go in a blink of an eye.

We will re-coupe our life one day, but we could never replace each other! So live, love, laugh and be grateful for what you have RIGHT NOW at this moment and time!! You never know when your life may change and with out that love and support from each other the journey will be alot harder manage!

Thank you Mitzi @ ~Southern Style~! So sweet of you and a nice welcoming from a month off!

So, I'm suppose to award this to 10 other people and tell you 10 things I love...................

Ten things I love:

1) I have to say I love my family 1st or Ill be shunned!

2) Of course my God always without him life would be really hard at times!

3)I love the feel of sand between my toes;

4)the sound of the ocean waves;

5)the sun on my face and the wind in my hair;

6)the smell of an Ocean breeze

7)A realllyyyy good Margarita (-;

8)Sex and The City...yes I'm a fan!

9)To Blog

10)The smell of fresh flowers, my favorite is a Magnolia Tree...nothing better!

I will have to go back and add the 10 Bloggers.....its not an easy task! I still haven't figured out how to add them, so that they can just be clicked on and you can go directly to their site!

SO MUCH PRESSURE LOL THANX AGAIN I APPRECIATE EVERYONE WHO VISITS AND OF COURSE THE AWARDS ARE A BONUS....VERY SWEET (-;

Have You Ever Wondered.............

Why doesn't McDonald's sell hotdogs? At a movie theater which arm rest is yours? What is Satan's last name? Why do doctors leave the room when you change? They're going to see you naked anyway. Where does the toetag go on a dead person if they don't have toes? If your driving a federal owned car, and you run a stop sign, is it considered a felony? Why is there a disclaimer on the Allstate Auto Insurance commericals that says "Not available in all states"? If you dug a hole through the center of the earth,and jumped in, would you stay at the center because of gravity? If a person dies and then springs back to life, do they get their money back for the coffin? If you are asked to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth and your the main witness, what if you say "no"? Do they bury people with their braces on? How far east can you go before you're heading west? How does a Real Estate company sell its office without causing confusion? Do dentists go to other dentists or do they just do it themselves? If, in a baseball game, the batter hits a ball splitting it right down the center with half the ball flying out of the park and the other half being caught, what is the final ruling? If you were to get drunk in a country where the drinking limit is under 21, and went to the states and were still over the limit, could they arrest you for underage drinking even though you did not do the drinking in the states. Why do people think that swaying their arm back and forth would change the direction of a bowling ball? If girls with large breasts work at Hooters, then do girls with one leg work at IHOP? Why is it that everyone driving faster than you is considered an idiot and everyone driving slower than you is a moron? If pro and con are opposites, wouldn't the opposite of progress be congress? Why does grape flavor smell the way it is when actual grapes don't taste or smell anything like it. If a lesbian has sex with other women but never with another man is she still considered a virgin? If a kid refuses to sleep during nap time, are they guilty of resisting a rest? Is it rude for a deaf person to talk (sign) with their mouth full of food? If its 11:30 PM Dec 31 in Texas and 12:30 AM Jan 1st in New York and you have a New York driver's license that expires Jan 2007, does that mean your license has expired? What's the difference between normal ketchup and fancy ketchup? If a transvesite goes missing, would you put their face on a carton of Half and Half?

Glad to be back (-;

Yayyyyy...........My Blogger friend D.D. Short for DazeeDreams.blogspot.com gave me this award! Thank You!! I feel I should get all dressed up, stand on a stool with hair brush in hand and give an acceptance speech! It would go something like this....................

I would first and foremost like to thank God for giving me giving me the ability to write and I mean just my name in general! I would like to thank my Mother-in-Law for giving me the ability to lie with a straight face (of course I always repent)! I would like to thank my family and friends for all my Blogging material and last but not least I would like to thank my new Blogging friends for taking the time to read my dribble (=

Im suppose to come up with some lies, but now under the pressure Im beginning to freeze lol so you decide whats true and whats not!

I would never....................

1) tell a lie

2) hide chocolate around the house

3)lie about my age

4)click my heels and wish I could be Dorothy

5)wonder ''WHY'' or ''WTH''

6)think my boys are awsum

7)think my husbands awsum

8)has alot of patience

9)Looks Good Naked (=

10)would love to have a fridge fulllll of Botox

So what cha think?! Ill give you a hint.....a few of them are a lie lol have an awsum day and I will be awarding this to a few of my Blogger friends tomorrow! Thanx again D.D.

The New Generation

That's what I will call it now, because it wasn't a few years back I referred to them as ''Old People"! Do you remember when you were in your teens 30 seemed Old. You just couldn't imagine EVER being ''30''! Surely by the time you were in your 30s death was knocking at your door.



Then you turn 20, in your 20's -40 seemed ancient! You couldn't imagine EVER being 40! How does someone that age even get around? Im sure they need help!



Around the corner you hit 30 and your starting to rethink what you thought about the 30s and 40s. BUT, still 50ish is Senior discounts in resturant age....damn that's old! How do they get out of bed? Speaking of bed, dont they go to bed at 6 and get up with the roosters?



OMG, now you are 40! The big 4-0! 50' not looking too old now, but 60 is decrepit. What a difference 10yrs would make. Surly people of THAT age have no fun and wouldn't DARE dream of that word''sex''! EWWWWW yuck surely they would never do that! Stop my brain from having a mental picture!



Then you hit 50 and you hear 50 is the new 30 or 20 or what ever bullshit it is they say! Now your not even worried about 60! You made it to 50 anything over that HAS to be a bonus! That's what I hear anyway, so I am rounding the 50 mark in a few years and my husband is in a few mths. I believed all those myths above!



I have come to realize its all B.S.! You are at any age what you put into it! Happiness, disappointments the up and downs of life at ALL ages makes the next decade another challenge. Yes, each stage of life SHOULD be simpler, but not always. IF it is consider it a gift from above!



Maybe 50 will be my new 20 or 30 , God knows that would be a blessing that I would take and run hard and fast with! I plan on doing all I can with this gift of life and my desire to do more and more increases with age. I feel settled in my relationships and blessed in my life. Struggles are not uncommon, but more easily delt with and processed.



So, the next time you see that ''Old Person'' remember by the Grace of God you too will be them! What a Glorious day that will be...............live-love-laugh means more to me these days! Now my friends I am on the cuspid of that ''The New Generation'' and am Proud to be here and looking forward to my Senior discounts one day!!

Im Eclectic

~AND I'M PROUD OF IT~



In the past it almost seemed like a bad thing to be eclectic. If you were ''eclectic'' then maybe you couldn't make up your mind or you had no style sense. I assure you neither of those are me!



I love everything! All kinds of cars,clothes,food,decorations,hair,make-up just about everything! I'm proud of the fact that I can find joy and beauty in all I see. Now I am picky on my shoes , but a girl has to have a few favorites!



My house is riddled with Antiques, mixed with some oriental pieces, shabby sheek mixed with family mementos and topped off with alittle modern! Hey, it works....it really does!



I like to mix and match my clothes, Ive even layered my perfumes! Maybe I am indecisive, but I like it that way! I love to mix what I read and what music I listen to. Ill go from Styx, to Creed,to Pink Floyd,to Hank Williams Jr, to Nickleback to Journey back to country then top it off with some Beethoven! Keeps life interesting!



The Madonna Era had to be one of my favorites- with a mix of Flash Dance, the doors were open for Eclectic dressing! I made alot of my clothes,quite stylishly I might add (or to me anyway lol) it was fun,free and not up-tight! Now don't get me wrong I also had the day time business suit, but at night that went far in the closet and I felt free.



I love to mix and match pillows on my bed to bring out that color you can barely see until you throw that pillow on it and make it ''POP''! I love to start a trend and not follow!



I love Sushi, but I also love a good steak and how about some Lobster with alittle Mexican and Italian on the side! I'm a salad freak, love me some fruit too!



I also can take a good glass of red wine or a Chocolate Martini, but a cold beer or frozen Margarita sounds good too. I will also add I am a Dt Coke junkie who loves her sweet tea too.



As far as movies go I love Trues stories, comedy's,thrillers,love stories, but I have to say I'm not much on Sci-fi! Theres nothing like an old classic to cuddle up on the couch with your man and a blanket!



My friends are of all walks and types. Ive never felt the need to classify my self and my friends. I have some that could buy and sell me 10times over then I have some that cant make rent. I have some that refuse to eat some where that doesn't have cloth napkins and others that want peanut shells on the floor! I'm open.................theres someone for every mood and occasion! I have single friends,married friends, kid less friends,friends with 6 kids,friends that are gran parents friends that truly believe their dogs are their kids lol



I have friends that ride Harley's(we own one), I have friends that hate Harley's........so it makes my life interesting and very hard to get bored.



This in return shows through how I decorate my house,choose my friends and live my life! Eclectic, full of all the things and people life has to offer! I try to live my life to the fullest and collect odds and ends along the way to tell the story. Thanks to everyone whose been a part of my journey. Theres a little piece of you some where in my house or heart!

~DID YOU KNOW~

Witch Hazel is an astringent that's an effective facial cleanser, it a treatment for insect bites and a cooling agent for hemorrhoids (ouch). Now research from Germany suggests witch hazel fights Herpes simplex virus type 1- the virus that causes cold sores. ''Witch hazels drying effect may break down the fatty outer envelope of virus cells, weakening them,''! To apply, dip cotton swab into the bottle, then dab on your cold sore. Its safe to apply several times a day!

Honey calms a cough better than over-the-counter cough surp. Honey sooths by coating the throat but may also help because its packed with antioxidants and antimicrobials. Don't give to kids under 1 ; their immune system cant handle the bacterium that's in some honeys. For adults a few spoons is plenty and if your allergic to bees make sure you don't have an allergy to honey, too!

Duct Tape, an East Texas favorite cure for ''everything''!! Did you know that duct tape actually removes warts better than freezing therapy! Their not really sure why it works, but it might be because it irritates the area, stimulating the immune system! Awsum huh! This is what you do : Clean the wart,then cover with duct tape. After 6days remove tape and soak wart in warm water. Use pumice or an emery board to rub away soft areas. Leave tape off over night; apply more the next morning. Repeat until wart is gone-usually 2mths!

Baby Shampoo is of course a gentle shampoo for babies, but is also used for itchy,red or crusty eyelids-a problem for many contact-lens wearers. Gently scrub the edges of your lids with a cotton ball soaked in diluted baby shampoo (3drops shampoo 6 tbs of water). Then rinse the lids with clean cotton balls dipped in warm water.

THESE ARE TRADITIONAL REMEDIES FROM HISTORY THAT YOU GRANDPARENTS TRIED OR FOR ME MY MOM TOO!

Butter-use it to relieve or heal a burn. It actually increases the risk of an infection!
Wet Rags-for a sore throat,wrap a cold damp wrag around you neck (flannel) and sleep with it!
Onions-boil chopped onions in water with sugar,then drink the surp to cure a cold.
Cigar Smoke-puff the smoke of a cigar directly into the achy ear to soothe and relieve pain.
Raw Steak-classic remedy for the black eye-but an ice pack works and wont expose you to bacteria


My mom was the worst. She was like the guy on ''My Big Fat Greek Wedding'' with the windex, but her drug of choice was ~Vicks Salve~! I still cringe at the name. When we had an ear ache she would heat it up over the burner til the spoon was red and pour the ''molten hot'' salve in our ear!! WHY...who told her this would work? Id like to slap them!
We would have the same fight,
''momma its too hot''
mom, ''sit down-no its not''!
me- ''mom its smoking''
mom-'' that's just steam''
''no momma don't owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! TOLD you it was too hot! ''
Mom- well I touched it with my finger and it didn't seem ''THAT'' hot!
What Momma, did you say somethinh ? Huh? I CANT HEAR YOU MOMMA!!!!! WTH


FINALLY, just a word of advise, Those Nabisco 100 calorie snack packs. You know the ones everything is ''pre'' measured so you wont ingest too may! Welll,it has come to me attetion(and my scales) that if you consume the whole box of the pre packaged little goodies you COULD and I repeat COULD be sabotaging your diet. Just a thought, a thought that I personally tend to ignore! I think I do better measuring my self. With me I think Im being stubborn because I know ''someone'' else has told me this is what you are suppose to have and NO MORE! I - the stubborn person I am will prove to them I can consume the entire 500 calories in the box with out even a sip from my diet coke!! What a goal to achieve huh (=

I DUNNO

Do you ever have those days where you have so much to say, but you just cant put it into words? I call it a brain fog. I'm sure it'll lift, but at the moment I just feel ''spent''! Mentally, physically.....period!

What do you do when you feel like that? No, I don't mean depressed etc I mean just emotionally drained. I wish I knew how to do Yoga or some type of inner peace exercise . Not that I would do it I just wished I knew how to lol Do you ever feel like a vacation ALONE? Not for any particular reason, just a soul searching, cleansing mission?!

Makes a person feel bad to be soul searching when there are people out there with bigger issues. Both of my children have graduated, 1 college the other in his second year and I think its part empty nest and part I want to do something else with my life at this stage! Sounds easy enough right? Wrong? I feel like I should be where I want to be at this point in my life.

I did fill out the FAFSA for College today in hopes of finishing one day. Its been years......kids and life got in the way. Its funny at my age I don't know what I wanna be ''when I grow up'' lol I want to do it ALL is the problem I think. I was a Hair stylist/make-up artist for 20+ yrs, actually still do it for Pageant's, Prom and Special Occasions. I've had a Reproduction Furniture Store for 5yrs, A Clothing/Retail Store and a Tanning/Retail Salon that I just shut down at the end of last year!

I say I'm multi-talented in what I can do.......truth is I'm just all over the place and have been very blessed to try different things! Now, Id like to finish my degree in Criminal Justice and do P.I. work.......I know.....has ABSOLUTELY nothing to do with my past! That's the ironic part of it. I'm a people person, I mingle and fit in easily and who doesn't want to be paid to dig up dirt on people! (Bad people that is!) I am in no way disillusioned at what the job entails. I have talked to many people who presently are in the profession or knows the field.

So, in short.......am I'm crazy, mid life-in it or doing what most people my age do if giving the opportunity?!

!! NEED TO KNOW INFO !!

I found out about 3 sites today that I think everyone should be aware of them! Theres a lot of buzz about these web sites that have an amazing amount of detail about you . This is a problem that will require constant checking and every time you hear of one of these sites you must go thru the motion to remove yourself.


Spokeo.com- you can remove yourself from this one by going to the Privacy Link to remove listing. Shouldnt take too long and you should be able to suppress your info on this site

Zabasearch- you can also go thru their process to block yourself

Socialdillgence- is a new one and they should also have a Privacy Link!


Kind of scarey that all of your information is out there for anyone to read!

~FIBROMYALGIA~

Understanding Fibromyalgia Symptoms
Chronic pain is defined as pain that lasts longer than 3 months. That’s the main symptom of Fibromyalgia: widespread muscle pain that lasts longer than 3 months. Widespread pain is defined as pain both above and below the waist and on both the right and left sides of the body.

At its best, Fibromyalgia may be described as “mild.” At its worst, intense pain can get in the way of doing normal day-to-day activities.

Some Fibromyalgia sufferers describe their pain as “all over” or “everywhere.” For some people, the pain and stiffness are worst when they wake up. Then it improves during the day. Symptoms may increase again at night. But other people have all-day, non-stop pain. This could include combinations of neck pain, arm pain, shoulder pain, back pain, hip pain, knee pain, feet pain, and pain in just about every other body part.

Everyone experiences pain occasionally, whether it’s a headache, muscle stiffness, or an upset stomach. Some people, such as migraine sufferers or those with irritable bowel syndrome, have to deal with pain and discomfort on a more frequent basis. And then there are people with fibromyalgia—a chronic pain disorder whose often debilitating symptoms overlap with many other diseases.

Now that three drugs have been approved to treat fibromyalgia, you may be hearing a lot about this condition. And if you’ve experienced unexplained pain recently, it’s easy to wonder whether you might even suffer from it. (Between 80% and 90% of those diagnosed with fibromyalgia are women.) Diagnosis can be tricky, but experts say that with the right information, it is possible to find the true cause of your pain—whether it’s fibro or something else—and get the treatment you need.

What Is Fibromyalgia?

Fibromyalgia syndrome is a common and chronic disorder characterized by widespread muscle pain, fatigue, and multiple tender points. The word fibromyalgia comes from the Latin term for fibrous tissue (fibro) and the Greek ones for muscle (myo) and pain (algia). Tender points are specific places on the body—on the neck, shoulders, back, hips, and upper and lower extremities—where people with fibromyalgia feel pain in response to slight pressure.

Although fibromyalgia is often considered an arthritis-related condition, it is not truly a form of arthritis (a disease of the joints) because it does not cause inflammation or damage to the joints, muscles, or other tissues. Like arthritis, however, fibromyalgia can cause significant pain and fatigue, and it can interfere with a person's ability to carry on daily activities. Also like arthritis, fibromyalgia is considered a rheumatic condition.

You may wonder what exactly rheumatic means. Even physicians do not always agree on whether a disease is considered rheumatic. If you look up the word in the dictionary, you'll find it comes from the Greek word rheum, which means flux—not an explanation that gives you a better understanding. In medicine, however, the term rheumatic means a medical condition that impairs the joints and/or soft tissues and causes chronic pain.

In addition to pain and fatigue, people who have fibromyalgia may experience

sleep disturbances,
morning stiffness,
headaches,
irritable bowel syndrome,
painful menstrual periods,
numbness or tingling of the extremities,
restless legs syndrome,
temperature sensitivity,
cognitive and memory problems (sometimes referred to as "fibro fog"), or
a variety of other symptoms.
Fibromyalgia is a syndrome rather than a disease. Unlike a disease, which is a medical condition with a specific cause or causes and recognizable signs and symptoms, a syndrome is a collection of signs, symptoms, and medical problems that tend to occur together but are not related to a specific, identifiable cause.

Who Gets Fibromyalgia?

According to a paper published by the American College of Rheumatology (ACR), fibromyalgia affects 3 to 6 million - or as many as one in 50 - Americans. For unknown reasons, between 80 and 90 percent of those diagnosed with fibromyalgia are women; however, men and children also can be affected. Most people are diagnosed during middle age, although the symptoms often become present earlier in life.

People with certain rheumatic diseases, such as rheumatoid arthritis, systemic lupus erythematosus (commonly called lupus), or ankylosing spondylitis (spinal arthritis) may be more likely to have fibromyalgia, too.

Several studies indicate that women who have a family member with fibromyalgia are more likely to have fibromyalgia themselves, but the exact reason for this—whether it be hereditary or caused by environmental factors or both—is unknown. One study supported by the National Institute of Arthritis and Musculoskeletal and Skin Diseases (NIAMS) is trying to identify if certain genes predispose some people to fibromyalgia. (

What Causes Fibromyalgia?

The causes of fibromyalgia are unknown, but there are probably a number of factors involved. Many people associate the development of fibromyalgia with a physically or emotionally stressful or traumatic event, such as an automobile accident. Some connect it to repetitive injuries. Others link it to an illness. People with rheumatoid arthritis and other autoimmune diseases, such as lupus, are particularly likely to develop fibromyalgia. For others, fibromyalgia seems to occur spontaneously.

Many researchers are examining other causes, including problems with how the central nervous system (the brain and spinal cord) processes pain.

Some scientists speculate that a person's genes may regulate the way his or her body processes painful stimuli. According to this theory, people with fibromyalgia may have a gene or genes that cause them to react strongly to stimuli that most people would not perceive as painful. However, those genes—if they, in fact, exist—have not been identified.

How Is Fibromyalgia Diagnosed?

Research shows that people with fibromyalgia typically see many doctors before receiving the diagnosis. One reason for this may be that pain and fatigue, the main symptoms of fibromyalgia, overlap with many other conditions. Therefore, doctors often have to rule out other potential causes of these symptoms before making a diagnosis of fibromyalgia. Another reason is that there are currently no diagnostic laboratory tests for fibromyalgia; standard laboratory tests fail to reveal a physiologic reason for pain. Because there is no generally accepted, objective test for fibromyalgia, some doctors unfortunately may conclude a patient's pain is not real, or they may tell the patient there is little they can do.

A doctor familiar with fibromyalgia, however, can make a diagnosis based on two criteria established by the ACR: a history of widespread pain lasting more than 3 months and the presence of tender points. Pain is considered to be widespread when it affects all four quadrants of the body; that is, you must have pain in both your right and left sides as well as above and below the waist to be diagnosed with fibromyalgia. The ACR also has designated 18 sites on the body as possible tender points. For a fibromyalgia diagnosis, a person must have 11 or more tender points. One of these predesignated sites is considered a true tender point only if the person feels pain upon the application of 4 kilograms of pressure to the site. People who have fibromyalgia certainly may feel pain at other sites, too, but those 18 standard possible sites on the body are the criteria used for classification.



Ive been Diagnoised since 96 and it has been a deffinete struggle. A strong support system means everything along with the proper doctor! If you know anyone with this please try to be encouraging and if I can be of help with my experiences or knowledge please put us in touch!

~THINGS IVE LEARNED!

This is not going to be what you thought. You know growing up whether friends, family or even a stranger there is that one thing they said that just sticks with you !

So, every Wednesday I will post ~THINGS IVE LEARNED~. Can be funny, informative, serious etc. Here are the few thing that popped in my mind today.

1) My friend and fellow Blogger Angie taught me to - Flush a public toilet with my foot/shoe! Sounds strange, but it never occurred to me that I didn't have to touch that nasty thing! I'm sure the people in the stall next to me wonder why I'm on 1 foot for a few seconds, but I think that was worthy of ~THINGS IVE LEARNED!~

2) My childhood friend and I have know each other since we were 12 and lets just say that's been a few years lol She gave me a ''plex'' in my teens because she ALWAYS told me as we got older to ,''not forget my neck when putting on facial products''! In retrospect I should have listened, Now I'm ''alittle'' older and my neck would look like a baby's butt (in my mind) had I only listened to my friends advise on applying the creams! So, now I slab it on about an inch thick hoping it will make up for the years of thinking I didn't need to!

That's all I have for tonight if I come up with anymore Ill save for next week. So, has anyone ever told you that one thing that was awsum or stupid that you've never forgotten? Well share with us and lets get a gasp or laugh together!

Happy Hump Day(-;

~SWEET~

I've reached my 1000+ viewer mark, so I know someone is reading my blog! Yayyyyy, awsum! I figured Id write my little heart out and only the 2 friends I started this journey with would actually read it much less comment.

Not that I have anything earth shattering to say, but its nice to see familiar faces start to come back. Ive already met some on here that I seem to have so much in common with.

Its turned into alot of fun and sharing! Thank you for joining my Community, Blog or both. I look forward to joining and reading yours too <3

Bday Bliss

June is a busy month for us. We have my sons bday, my bday an our anniversary (all in 7days). If I were a nice wife I would let him use that as an excuse for the story below, but why do that when I can use it as leverage for years to come lol

When my boys were little my husband took them to the store ''The day of'' to buy me a BIRTHDAY card! As I take it out of the pretty purple envelope there was one of those dreary kinda flowers on it and it read ''My deepest Sympathy''! I open it up and it proceeds in the same theme, '' Our hearts and prayers are with you in your time of loss""! WTH?!

I thanked the boys and told them how pretty it was and they went along their merry way. THEN, I asked my hubbie if he'd seen the card. He replies ''YES - WHY?''. Now dont get me wrong I was lmao ''inside'', but the look on my husbands face was ''priceless'' when I handed him the card! He didnt know whether to run,apologize or admit defeat.

I have that card in an album and I laugh everytime I read it. He still has no idea I found it as funny as I did. He always acted like he put sooo much time and energy into the card picking process and helping the boys..... can you say ''BUSTED''! As I said if I were a ''nice'' wife I would have let it go, but that one was too good to let slide. Its been over 15yrs and I get the sweetest cards now....Things that make you go hummmm!

DAY FROM H=E=L=L

I'm in our local convenient store a few days back and purchased a lottery ticket. This ticket is called Texas Two Step. I've never bought it before, but I had a ''feeling''! I purchased $4 worth.

A few days later I'm in the store and decide to check it. Low and behold the music plays and she said you won something. I said cool, because I figured it was $5 or something. The girl behind the counter checks it and says ''S**t gurl you done won somethan!'' (her language lol) Then the man from the back come out an says ''no s**t you did''....I said ''seriously'' they harmonize ''NO S**T''!

Now this is starting to sound like alot of money, so I'm beginning to jump up and down with glee....seriously! The jack pot was 1.1 million!!! Yea, that WOULDA been nice. Long story short I won $1,100.00! Ill take it!! Hell of a return on $4.oo!

So, my husband and I set off for our 120ish mile round trip journey. He asks me several times, you got this - you got that (after 32yrs that's annoying!) OF COURSE I DO I reply! We drove by our house and our son needed the ruck so we changed vehicles and headed on our Merry way. Are you seeing where this is going yet?!

We get there in plenty of time to spare. I walk in with a hop in my step, hand him my ticket, Drivers license and SS card. He looks over everything and says,'Did you sign the back?'' I say ''no sir'' and he hands me a pen! I fill it out hand it back and .....wait for it...wait for it.....he says ''I'm sorry Miss we have to have a CURRENT D.L""!! !!x##!!***##@@@***xxx!!! WHAT?!!!

So, I turn to my husband and say, ''you do it''. The man looks at me and states ''I'M SORRY MISS HE CANT BECAUSE YOU JUST FILLED OUT THE BACK''!!! > WHAT!!!! You just looked at my stuff and TOLD me too!! I ask him what can I do? Miss Big Hair from the back states, ''you can mail it?'' XXX???!!!!!!######???!!!! WHAT!!!???

My patience at this point are hanging on by a thread! What happened you ask, I had my S.S card and a D.L. but the D.L. was not the CURRENT one....the current one was with my son in the truck!!! Now my question is , why does it matter? There is a picture and its ME on my DLs?!

I asked them so what would happen if I go to the DPS office and get a NEW one! He proceeds to tell me I couldn't just go do that. I proceeded to tell him for $11 bucks I most certainly could lol SO I DID!!!

Sounds like that was the solution right....NO!! After sitting and waiting for 2hrs,making small talk to a very nice lady who worked there I was thru with 1hr to spare! Yea baby money here I come!! Ill show them....

Well, no I didn't. We leave, there is silence as we pull out of the parking lot because I believe my husbands head will explode at any moment! I'm trying to be cool, but I can feel it coming and it did. We didn't make it a few miles when the traffic jam from hell was in front of us. A Tanker Truck has rolled over and it was a mess ! The loop that leads to EVERYWHERE was closed off and traffic was at a Stand still....no one is moving....NO ONE!!

I look at my husband and boom he said, '' I asked you if you had everything and you said you did!'' He just couldn't stand it! I...still trying to stay calm said ''' its all good we have plenty of time we can maneuver around this''! After seeing the news crews everywhere and traffic not moving I pretty much knew this was a wasted trip! I STILL try to be positive by stating ''at least I got my license renewed'' if looks could have killed my body would be up for viewing tomorrow.

By the time we got lost, called a friend for a short cut etc we FINALLY reach the Lotto Head quarters at 5:05, I kid you not 5:05....they were closed!! I believe they turned out the lights, locked the door and were on the floor peaking at me and laughing their butts off when we drove up on 2wheels and my hubbie is yelling ''RUN RUN!'' They were closed and locked up like Fort Knox!!!

Sooooo, we met up with the friends we called for directions, had a meal and I had a very large Margarita and we drove home mostly in silence. OMG it was KILLING him that I did that.... he was grinding his teeth the whole way home. I was trying hard not to laugh, but the closer we got home I just had to! It was pretty damn funny! I tell him '' you know its funny'' he glares....again I say ''you KNOW its funny''. This is the kicker I figured out a way to turn it around on him....I STATE ''Well you know me and you know I always do something like that so why didn't YOU make sure I had what I needed (-: ''

No he didn't kill me, he was so flustered he apologized to me! Now I know your thinking, ''that's bad''...........well he shouldn't have gave me 60ish miles in silence to decide it WAS HIS fault after all LOL! Men, they'll never understand women. So Im going alone Monday to try this ALL again! Wish me luck!