Hi There

I have really missed my Blogging Girls! How is everyone? Theres been so much going on the last 6-7mths that I had to put Blogging on the back-burner. I had BIG plans to do a Diary of our life and what we have and are dealing with, but again it just wasn't in the cards.

Everything is going well! Wesley is tolerating treatment and we have figured out how to have a ~normal~ life again. One that includes trips to the hospital every 2mths, blood work weekly, chemo monthly and the unknown of it all.

Isn't it funny how the powers above take over and you learn how to cope and deal with what life gives you. The good, the bad and the ugly, but also the beautiful. I wont sit here at this point and say my attitude is always positive and roses have an all new scent, because that's b.s.

In the beginning I thought that writing about it and documenting every little thing would help. Well I soon realized I didn't need to document anything, because I will never forget on any level. With that being said I also realized I just wanted to live and sometimes forget. Just be normal, have fun, go on vacation, go to graduation of my sons and pretend we were ok. As crazy as it seems that's how Ive learned to cope. Don't get me wrong....I by no means am in denial......just surviving!

In this survival mode things have mostly been good! I believe the survival mode is also the positive mode! Its all good is my saying! Its all good till it isn't! Then you go on, but you cant dwell on the negative! In doing this our boys are good, my husband is doing awesome and I'm holding strong! Just got my passport renewed and looking forward to going out of the country, hoping to one day spend alot of time just chilling!!

So, as you can see I plan on having many Margaritas on the Beach with my husband and yes sometimes alone!! We\Im going to be ok! Now enough of all this serious talk I want some fun conversation! Some Summer Plans, something fun going on I may not have heard of (;

Besafe ..........have fun!!!

''THE CAMP''

For my sons College Graduation we had party #2 at ''The Camp'' Saturday. Now we are from E. Tx and we refer to alot of places like that. We have Moon Lake, Half Moon, The Cannons, Black Cypress, Ltl Cypress, Big Cypress and so on. The Camp is family land wayyyyy out in the woods that runs along the River leading to the well known Caddo Lake. If you've ever seen the movie Deliverence, thats kind of the setting without the banjos.

We held the first party at a nice restraunt, you know the kind with the cloth napkins lol This one was on the river with a Skeet shoot, washers (throwing metal washers in certain holes lol) horse shoes, a keg (their mid 20's and noone was leaving for night)!

Right by the cabin is a place called Half Moon (I know). Half Moon is the home of several Alligators one at the moment is around 12ft! Now as I said we are in ''The woods!'' which means there are alllll kind of reptiles and varmints! Everyone is having a good time the men are having a skeet tournie when all of a sudden I hear ''SNAKE!!!''

Well let me tell you I couldnt run fast enough! I was mid air careful that the feet didnt touch the ground(just in case) I jump in the back of a truck and as I look up I see my friend running out of our cabin. The men are still shooting and are not aware of her screaming or me running on air!

Now I start yelling ''SNAKE SNAKE SNAKE''...all these men take off running toward the cabin like 'The snake whisperers' and or ''The snake hunters''! Im still in the truck as these men race past me and toward the cabin guns loaded. They get inside ready to shoot the cabin up and it was a ....harmless garden snake. Im STILL in the truck!!

My friend was standing in front of the cabin staring at me, I started laughing and told her ''I love you , but Im NOT geting out of this truck''! As the hostess I felt my job was to alert the Men! I thought I did this very well and at a pitch I didnt know my voice could reach! Im still in the truck! There are ten men loaded with everything from a 22 to a AR 15 and guess what ''no snake'' it got away! SEEMS LIKE I HAD THE RIGHT IDEA TO JUMP IN THE TRUCK LMAO. Im sure ''my friend'' the snake is laughing at me and bonding with ''my other friend'' the alligator!

GRADUATION

Wow, at 10:00 a.m. tomorrow morning my oldest son will graduate from College. He will earn his Bachelor In Science In Industrial Technology/Mapping and Surveying. This is such an accomplishment and we so very proud of him! We have had alot of tragedies during his last four years of college,2 weeks ago his role-model and gran-pa passed away, his Uncle passed 1yr ago, we lost our home and all contents 2yrs ago, hes had 2 surgeries one which included having his jaws wired for 6wks and he also had his wisdom teeth (all 4) removed ....oh and Swine Flu!!

During all the above and due to the loss of our home we have moved 5times in 2yrs! During all of this my son was taking 21-22 and 24hrs! Which if you know anything about college we had to get anything over 19hrs approved by the Dean. Now, dont think for one minute that hes someone who ''likes'' school....total opposite! This is what makes tomorrow even more special! He actually hated school lol......he loved Sports, he loved socializing,he loved hunting.....school not so much haha

So, as I sit here tonight beaming with pride its bitter sweet! My babies grown.......he will ALWAYS be my baby! Now hes my baby with a degree! God has blessed us with him and his brother and I know they will succeed at anything that they set their minds to! Please say a prayer that I survive tomorrow with out making a fool of me or my son! The tears have flowed off and on all day to day....they are Happy Tears, but they are Mothers tears of Joy,Pride and most of all Love......those for me are sometimes hard to control.

He will be wearing his Poppas class ring tomorrow that we had cleaned and added his initials inside. I hope this is of some comfort to him.........his Poppa was as proud of him as we are! What a special relationship they had. Im sure he will be standing on that stage with him tomorrow and I pray my son can feel his presence!